Waiting

I'm outside the school waiting tonight. It's a middle school dance. I dropped off 6 girls. I don't know how many are being picked up and how many are coming back home with me. It's over at 8:30. Even though I live 5 blocks away, it's good to get here and get my parking space and "cop park" in it. 

I can see the door. I can see into the cafeteria. I can drive out of my space. I've learned a few tricks over the years. 

The girls were all giggling when they came to our house after school. They giggled while they changed clothes and put on make up. 

It made me think of other times and other girls. 

I've looked at old pictures today as I was decluttering. I found Katie's second grade "portfolio" of her work. 

I miss her so keenly today that it takes my breath away. 

I'm waiting until someday that maybe it won't. 

And I'm waiting to hold my baby again.