Wonderful

Here is what I'm thinking of. It came from Joslyn from my last post. If you remember she came up with the entirety of the Kabir poem. The first two lines are:

"Are you looking for me? I am in the next seat.

My shoulder is against yours."

Here is what she had to say about it:

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   JHegelmeyerJanuary 11, 2014 at 10:05 PM

   I love those first two lines...just beautiful. It is about spirituality, about God, about Katie's presence, about friendship, about whatever it is we are looking for.

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I love the thought of Katie' shoulder against mine. We sat like that often, leaning on each other. It was one of the best things about her growing into her womanhood. She was no longer a child on my lap and hadn't been for several years. She became someone I could lean against. The relationship was evolving into a new stage that fascinated me. I could see her at 24, catch glimpses of the mother she would be at 34, see her smile as a grandmother. 

It was like a shimmer. A hologram where you can see both, one just a shimmer on the edge of the other. 

And I could see her heart. She had an old soul. Beautiful and kind. She dreamed about the kids she would have and what she would do with them. She was stockpiling ideas of places to go on her own and places she would go as a mom with her kids.  

That's something I haven't let myself think about.  I can't think about what she would have been.  She would have been wonderful because she was wonderful.