1. My soundtrack in my brain is now Why? by Annie Lennox. Or is it when she was still in the Eurythmics? I'm sure someone will look it up for me if they care enough.
2. I think I may start reading a book given to me by a friend of a friend who lost her son three years ago.
3. I've got to write thank you notes to the little old ladies who expect them. And probably to the cash donors to the memorial fund. Definitely to the girl whose name I didn't recognize who sent a card and a half-dozen pink roses to the funeral. That one touched me the most.
4. Grief? Depression? Exhaustion?
5. This weekend will be hard. Very hard.
6. I put on Facebook that I needed a cookie. Cookies were delivered. Maybe I should put on Facebook that I need wine.
7. I still haven't touched alcohol since. I'm rather afraid of falling into the bottle. If I drink, I don't want to drink alone.
8. I need to find purpose again in my life. I need Libby to consistently be in school.
9. *That* attorney will be here the morning of November 1st.
10. I can't get what I want out of a lawsuit, but maybe I can prevent someone else's grief.
A few random responses to the above:
ReplyDelete1. Annie Lennox, solo artist. Yep, I had to look it up.
4. Grief, depression, exhaustion, all rolled up into one--and impossible to separate from one another.
5. You have been in my heart this weekend. We will be seeing you later, and making sure you are OK tomorrow.
6. If you put on Facebook that you need wine, I'm sure it will be delivered. Which leads to:
7. When you're ready, you have some very good friends who would drink with you. ;) But only when you're ready.
10. It's my hope that something good can come out of this. This is the only way I see that happening.
1. I knew someone would have to google it.
Delete6/7. I'm getting closer. Maybe November.
10. Thank you, Bridget. I didn't know I needed that validation until it came.