Today is the three week mark. 21 days. I'll think about it all day and almost hold my breath from 6-8 tonight.
Lib asked to stay home from school today. I said it's okay. I've got to call her in to school soon. Yesterday was a long day. School. Orthodontist. More school. Counseling. It's a Friday. As Libby says, Fridays are hard. This is only the second Friday she could have been in school.
The first Friday, we were in Oklahoma because the first funeral was Thursday. On Wednesday, Joe and I saw Katie. Then that Friday (after discussing and consulting with counselors) we gave Libby the option of seeing her. She did. She has since repeatedly told us that she regrets seeing Katie and that she blames us for giving her the option.
So. Fridays are hard. And exhausting.
Does the counselor think she just needs someone to blame and is lashing out at you? That's what I'd think. I'm sure you need someone to blame too. And it sucks that there just isn't anyone.
ReplyDeleteLove you.
Yes, the counselor, does think that she needs someone to blame. It was a huge decision to let her make her own choice. The other options were to keep it a secret from her for life, or to make that decision for her and let her blame us anyway.
ReplyDeleteHopefully Libby will come to realize that she can eventually deal with seeing Katie, but dealing with never having seen her cannot be undone. Stay strong and be loved, all three of you.
ReplyDeleteSomeday Libby will be at peace with seeing Katie and be thankful. It all takes time. I hug you all everyday in my heart.
ReplyDeleteBrian made a great point there. It was the lesser of two evils.
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