"Yeah, I get that.
I told Jody the day after it happened, this is so selfish of me, but I'm grieving you as much as I'm grieving Katie. Obviously it breaks my heart that I'll never see Katie again, but what I'm most crushed about is that I'll never see YOU again. Not the you that you used to be. That person is gone. You'll never be the same again. And my God I loved that person.
I'll never stop loving you, of course. I'll love whoever you become, every part of you, physical, mental, and emotional. I will have your back as long as we live. But "you" as you were no longer exists. How could she? There's no way. So that's a loss that I'm grieving.
And a huge part of that grief is fear. I'm just terrified for you having to live the rest of your life like this.
I'm sorry I'm rambling. You've just been on my heart so much."
*sigh* I totally get this.
ReplyDeleteI totally get this too... I cry just thinking about you Shannon... I have not shed as many tears as you but I have shed so many... more then I ever thought imaginable. I know our bond is not as deep as yours and Amy but I will love you forever. I will miss the "old" you but I will always love "you" - "just the way you are"
ReplyDeleteI'm so blessed with friends who get me. I don't care how short or long that I've known you.
ReplyDeleteOh, Amy. You have put into words what I have thought on a few occasions. Shannon, I will always love you, no matter what. But yeah, that "old" Shannon is gone and in her place is a Shannon full of pain. The "loss" of that friend is difficult.
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