On Friday Wendie and her middle daughter drove in from Nebraska and surprised me. I was so shocked! She has always said she just wants to hug me while I cry. I obliged her.
Saturday was wonderfully chaotic as friends and family descended on the house to help with last minute cleaning and tweaking and all the appetizer making.
10th Annual Cookie Exchange was a success. Lots of cookies and laughter. The house was filled with love. But if I stopped. Even for a moment, I started to cry. So like Dori in Finding Nemo, I just kept swimming. At one a.m. I crawled in bed and was almost instantly asleep.
Today was friends and family and girls to sleepover with Lib, so fairly busy. Not much downtime. The Other Mothers came over this evening, and we gave them the thank you gifts.
We decided on a code phrase for me to send in a text message when I'm drowning. I'll just have to text, "It's really shitty." Very subtle, but they can read between the lines.
Right now I'm in bed. I've got a nagging headache. Probably partially because I'm weepy. Partially from not eating well today. Partly because some days I have headaches.
It's downtime, and I'm processing. Just a review of the weekend running in my head. I've a lot of people who love me. A friend from college who married a dear sorority sister from college emailed me on Saturday to tell me that I am loved and have more friends than there are flakes of snow.
That's a blessing.
I just wish I didn't need them so desperately now.
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